So...I have officially entered the "emotional" portion of pregnancy. LOL! It started yesterday...
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I was having a rough time keeping my crap together...everything was ticking me off...I was like a dragon with crazy PMS. It wasn't pretty!
Then, in a frenzy I call up the OB to see if they would see me sooner because I was having a PANIC ATTACK over the slight possibility that I might have a miscarriage, maybe. Thankfully they are used to dealing with crazies like me and talked me down.
Fast forward to this morning when hubby was loading Tyler up into the car to visit Granny for the weekend and I was crying...Wait! Didn't I want to ship him off yesterday? And now I'm reduced to tears because I won't see his cute little face for a couple of days.
Oh Boy! Here we go! I think things are going to be just fine! :P
Katie
Friday, April 27, 2012
Wednesday, April 25, 2012
Patience...It's not my virtue!
So, I have not been a very good blogger for the last week or so. I haven't really been inspired, but I'm feeling guilty and actually thought about something, so here it goes.
The last 2 weeks have been HELL!
No...nothing is wrong with the baby(ies)(that I know of). I am NOT a patient person! It is killing me to not know what is going on inside my body. Having to wait until May 15th to find out is like 500,000,000,000 times worse than the 2ww!
One day I feel totally confident that all is well and there is nothing to worry about and then the next day I am a ball of stress worrying that I'm not really pregnant or that I'm miscarrying again. I have to calm down!
Thankfully, I regularly have unpleasant pregnancy symptoms that reassure me that all is well and progressing and I remember that I have to have faith that Heavenly Father knows what is best, and hope that his plan lines up with mine!
Anywho...that's really what's been going on with me, other than sick kid, sick hubby, and sick me! Blah! :P
Katie
No...nothing is wrong with the baby(ies)(that I know of). I am NOT a patient person! It is killing me to not know what is going on inside my body. Having to wait until May 15th to find out is like 500,000,000,000 times worse than the 2ww!
One day I feel totally confident that all is well and there is nothing to worry about and then the next day I am a ball of stress worrying that I'm not really pregnant or that I'm miscarrying again. I have to calm down!
Thankfully, I regularly have unpleasant pregnancy symptoms that reassure me that all is well and progressing and I remember that I have to have faith that Heavenly Father knows what is best, and hope that his plan lines up with mine!
Anywho...that's really what's been going on with me, other than sick kid, sick hubby, and sick me! Blah! :P
Katie
Sunday, April 15, 2012
Relinquishing Control
One of the perks, and drawbacks, of being in the care of an RE is that if you do get pregnant they monitor you very closely for the first 6-8 weeks. The do multiple blood draws to check your HCG level (beta)(which is supposed to double every 48-72 hours, and do ultrasounds starting at 6 or so weeks to check for development, # of babies, and the heartbeat.
When everything is going well, this is great! Especially because you get to see your baby so early on. But when things are bad, you know often a couple of weeks before you will actually have a miscarriage (which is what happened to me last September). It is sheer torture knowing that you are going to have a miscarriage and just having to sit around and wait for it to start...eventually.
So, in lieu of the incident with the RE this cycle, I am not consulting them on this pregnancy and am being "forced" to relinquish that sense of control that I'm used to. It is tough! I only got one blood draw to verify pregnancy. My beta came in at 65 at 10dpo. That is pretty awesome. Its killing me to not know where it's at now, but I'm trying to relax. Click here to see a chart of averages for a beta. I will have to wait til I'm 8w3d to see the little bean(s), and find out how many there are and if they/it are healthy. I am not a patient person when it comes to these things. LOL!
So until May 15th, I am forcing myself to turn control over this pregnancy to God and trust that he knows what we need and what is best for us! It is soooo hard! :P
Katie
When everything is going well, this is great! Especially because you get to see your baby so early on. But when things are bad, you know often a couple of weeks before you will actually have a miscarriage (which is what happened to me last September). It is sheer torture knowing that you are going to have a miscarriage and just having to sit around and wait for it to start...eventually.
So, in lieu of the incident with the RE this cycle, I am not consulting them on this pregnancy and am being "forced" to relinquish that sense of control that I'm used to. It is tough! I only got one blood draw to verify pregnancy. My beta came in at 65 at 10dpo. That is pretty awesome. Its killing me to not know where it's at now, but I'm trying to relax. Click here to see a chart of averages for a beta. I will have to wait til I'm 8w3d to see the little bean(s), and find out how many there are and if they/it are healthy. I am not a patient person when it comes to these things. LOL!
So until May 15th, I am forcing myself to turn control over this pregnancy to God and trust that he knows what we need and what is best for us! It is soooo hard! :P
Katie
Saturday, April 14, 2012
Hmmm...
Well, I have been debating for a few days how to say this to those of you who read my blog. I think the best way to say it is to not say it. If you are wondering what I'm talking about click here.
This is not really something I want everyone to know, so please don't say anything on Facebook. If you take the time to read my blog I wanted you to know. :P
Katie
This is not really something I want everyone to know, so please don't say anything on Facebook. If you take the time to read my blog I wanted you to know. :P
Katie
Thursday, April 12, 2012
Holding Pattern
I am having a bit of writers block these days. We are in a "holding pattern" right now and it makes it hard for me to decide what to write about. On top of that, the progesterone has me exhausted!
Anyways, just trying to stay positive and hope that everything works out the way we want it to: a pregnancy, preferably one with only one or two babies, no major issues, and some good airfares so that I can go home this summer and see my new baby niece that will be delivered by c-section on May 10th. :P
Katie
Anyways, just trying to stay positive and hope that everything works out the way we want it to: a pregnancy, preferably one with only one or two babies, no major issues, and some good airfares so that I can go home this summer and see my new baby niece that will be delivered by c-section on May 10th. :P
Katie
Tuesday, April 10, 2012
Slacker
I didn't realize I haven't written a post in like 4 days. Geesh! What is my problem?
Anyways, it has been an eventful few days. Saturday was a family day, Sunday was Easter...another family day, and yesterday I was running around for Dr. Appts.
On Easter, we got to my MIL's house and I realized that my foot and ankle were swollen. I didn't think much of it other than it was weird. Soon enough I had concerned parties warning me of blood clots and the mild panic set in. So yesterday it was still puffy and I went to the Dr. He didn't really say much, but sent me to the hospital for an ultrasound to rule out a blood clot.
They didn't see anything, so no big. I'm just swollen I guess. Hoping for a "good" explanation as to why if you catch my drift (wink, wink). :P
Katie
Anyways, it has been an eventful few days. Saturday was a family day, Sunday was Easter...another family day, and yesterday I was running around for Dr. Appts.
On Easter, we got to my MIL's house and I realized that my foot and ankle were swollen. I didn't think much of it other than it was weird. Soon enough I had concerned parties warning me of blood clots and the mild panic set in. So yesterday it was still puffy and I went to the Dr. He didn't really say much, but sent me to the hospital for an ultrasound to rule out a blood clot.
They didn't see anything, so no big. I'm just swollen I guess. Hoping for a "good" explanation as to why if you catch my drift (wink, wink). :P
Katie
Friday, April 6, 2012
Keep Dreaming!
So, I was sitting here just now reading some other infertility blogs and I remembered a dream I had last night. In that dream I was quite pregnant. It was lovely! I don't remember much else about it other than I was surprised because I was very pregnant and didn't remember getting a BFP or any of the other stuff in the middle of pregnancy, but I didn't care!
Those dreams are so tough. On one hand you are so happy in the dream and everything, but when you wake up and realize it was just a dream you are heartbroken.
These dang hormones really mess with me...give me pregnancy dreams, make me have pregnancy symptoms, and make me a hot mess!
On a separate note, I was thinking this morning about my Dr. appointment yesterday and when the doc came in with my pee test results for the UTI he asked if I wanted to have them dip for pregnancy. For half a second I almost said yes, but ultimately told him it was too early, which is true. I realized this morning that if he had done the test there would have very likely been a positive because of my trigger shot. What a mess that would have been!
Speaking of my UTI, I feel so much better today! A dose of antibiotics and half a gallon of cranberry juice really goes a long way. I actually got a decent night's sleep last night for the first time since I ovulated. Woohoo! I'm still cranky though...dang hormones. :P
Katie
Those dreams are so tough. On one hand you are so happy in the dream and everything, but when you wake up and realize it was just a dream you are heartbroken.
These dang hormones really mess with me...give me pregnancy dreams, make me have pregnancy symptoms, and make me a hot mess!
On a separate note, I was thinking this morning about my Dr. appointment yesterday and when the doc came in with my pee test results for the UTI he asked if I wanted to have them dip for pregnancy. For half a second I almost said yes, but ultimately told him it was too early, which is true. I realized this morning that if he had done the test there would have very likely been a positive because of my trigger shot. What a mess that would have been!
Speaking of my UTI, I feel so much better today! A dose of antibiotics and half a gallon of cranberry juice really goes a long way. I actually got a decent night's sleep last night for the first time since I ovulated. Woohoo! I'm still cranky though...dang hormones. :P
Katie
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